Kayla

sorry ive been busy lately

2003-01-18T16:26:57Z

the time is all fucked up sorry!!!!!
So.. lets run threw my week, me and Chris started talking again but he pissed me off so i hate him.. I saw ugene(my 4th grade love) b/c he moved and now HES BACK!!!!! I now love Matt.. more then b4. Im pissed cause hes back with Brittany Gunderson!!!! that bitch!!! Rich Nole and i are in a fight b/c he called me a poser and i called him a dirty skank. Me and Ryan are in a fight b/c i wrote him a note and he showed EVERYONE AT HIS LUNCH TABLE!!! I went to the mall and saw TONS of hott guys.. i got 2 phone numbers and chilled with some friends of mine from the ska shows that im "not aloud to go to since im not wanted"*jess* but they said hi ur my new friend and thats that! Then Pat and Dan(their guy friends) kept tickling me and i started crying and i saw these goth kids and PHEW.. WERE THEY HOTT.. One kid had kinda long black hair and he was the hottest of them all but hey.. im shy when it comes to ppl i like.. cause if i dont like u believe me i will not be shy. Sam saw alot of hotties but.. hey.. i duno i saw alot of ppl too. I got this kid.. uhh Steve i think i got his number,and This other kid whos ADORABLE! his name was Rj but he was 17 wit a gf...*cried* but w/e i still like him and Sam told me he was flirting cause everytime id start talking hed stop looking around and look straight at me and everytime she turned around when we were walking she said he was looking at my ASS and he was following us.. well and then i saw Dj,Jordan,and Jannel(i duno how to spell it) See Jordan.. ive liked him since like the 3rd grade adn i told him adn now i think hes like eEeEwWwWw THAT UGLY FAT GIRL LIKES ME.. AHHh! But i dont care.. w.e his loss not mine. then i bought new pants,a new braclet(studed) and black gummie ones(i duno how to desribe them) i hope my friends call me so i can meet ^ wit them.. me and sam might g2 the show together but, im supposed to take kathy and Caroline so.. uuhh i hate having a life sometimes.. oh yeah me and my sis had a blow out in the car and i threw the keys at her and she chased me into the house trying to hit me so now shes all bitching to my mom probally and im gonna get fucked over again and will probally spend my night home... someitmes i which britt didnt have to bitch and complain about every fucking thing that ever happened wrong to her.. shes a whiney bitch.. she pisses me off.. i mean i got shit i could tell my mom about her but no im a good sis and i dont fuck wit ppls 411! anywho im gonna go and break stuff.. bye!

Hey im Sorry i havent been on lately!

2003-01-11T02:09:59Z

hey.. well this is how lifes been treating me lately.. my mom has been a complete bitch and has been flipping on me ALL week. People from school been startin shit....ive been behind in ALL my classes and i duno this week has sucked ass.. im punished from the comp. and phone for like ever and ive been takin my pics on the comp.. ill put on my fav. pic tommorow.Yet, school has been helping... i get to see the 4 guys i love! Ryan.D.,Rich Nole,this kid that wears this hot trenchcoat,and finally and most cutest.. MATT .I. aahhh hes soooooooo hott!I mean I try not to stare at him all during hw and Latin but i duno its not workin. I mean every like 10 secs. i look over and i stare at his beautiful eyes and im like why cant he like me?and why does Rachel keep talking to me? AHHH IM GONNA DUCKTAPE HER TO HER SEAT! She needs to buy herself a muzzle.. i mean shes ight but i think she hates me and she pisses me off!!! my sister has been taking sides wit my mom and ive been chillin wit my dad. my mom punched me when we were in a fight so i had to write that down and remember and she pegged a pan at the sink only 2 cms from me and busted it all up. I cant take it when someone hits me b/c if i hit her back i dont wanna sound all tough but if i really actually hit hit Someone id fuck them off.. Blieve u me!!!! well i g2g b4 i start freakin out.. adios
*Kayla*

antipreppies @ 2003-01-04T11:24:00

2003-01-05T04:22:28Z

Which Donnie Darko character are you? by Shay</font>

im very bored... im tired,emotionally drained,and sick. Well. i met this kid at the mall named mike... AHHHH Hes adorable and i like him,but i dont think he likes me... he didnt seem interested... well im tired.. night

woo-woo NEW YEARS!

2003-01-01T16:40:36Z

Wow,new years sucked!!!!!It was soo boring, I played darts,beat up jerrys kids(my moms bf,kids-Evan(12)Corey(14))They fighting and throwing darts at eachother and breaking the point so i kicked the shit outta both of them.I went psycho on my punching bag and fucked up my wrist(right) and it hurts like a bitch now.Umm whatelse... i practically lived on aol and this new shit,Butterfinger popcorn.I duno I bought it at the foodstore and its good so im chowin! OOOHHH WAIT I DID DO SOMETHING YESTERDAY. I went out!!!woo, me my mommy,my sister,and her friend Jaquie we all went on errans.We went to WOW Video,and on the way their i saw Rich Beckly,and his lil poser biker crew(gag) and the weird thing is he smiled at me and waved and i ducked and almost threw up... i hate him, he calls me Avril all the fucking time... DIE RICH DIE!!!!Im excited to go back to school,i have nothing else to destroy... haddon Township is now a warzone.Its going down to china town!!!!!!!!!!oh yeah!Im on the look out for someone to go to funerals with me. I just wanna go to someones funeral i dont know,and get buddy buddy with ppl i duno and go to the party and eat and stuff... i duno i mean ive "thrown up" on ppls shoes at school(put the schools bakebeans in ur mouth and make throw up noises and barf on preppies shoes...its the best.Well I think im about done now,?hmmm yea i tihnk so. Well adios
.....::::Kayla:::.....
are you going to live your life wondering,
stand in the back, looking around?
are you going to waste your time thinking
how youve grown up
how youve missed out?
things are never going to be the way you want
wheres it going to get you acting serious?
things are never gonna be quiet what you want
even at 25 you got to start sometime
are you going to live your live staning in the back looking around?
are you going to waste your time?
got to make a move or you'll miss out
someones gonna ask you what it's all about
stick around nostalgia wont let you down,
someones gonna ask you what its all about
what are you going to have to say for yourself?

Im on my feet
im on the floor
im good to go
So come on Davey,sing me something that i know
want to allways feel like part of this was mine
want to fall in love tonight
here,tonight
-jimmy eat world-bleed america *A praise Chorus*#2

UuGgHh!!!!!! I cant sleep!

2002-12-31T05:46:28Z

*Yawn*<>~~ yeah i wish... I have nothing to do,I dont wanna start my project,and All Things Rock isnt on,and I already watched my movies,I saw Donnie Darko-its really really good but it confused the shit outta me... if anyone knows what the fuck the point and plot is PLEASE tell me im itching to know. Well I duno I just thought Donnie and his gf were soo cute together(yes i realize it is only a movie) but i think that bf's should respect it when a girl doesnt wanna hook^ wit him right away,and i think that im not gonna go out with another guy unless i know him and I think i wont be going out with someone for a while cause guys my age only wanna get with u and do other shit and im sorry my taste is much more sopisticated but the older guys when their with the yougins they think they can take advantage.... I DUNO.. WHY CANT I FIND SOMEONE JUST PERFECT,FOR ME!?Guys-no older then 6(the bar will be raised at a different time) dont care about making out(all the time atleast) doesnt only care about looks(not the hottest thing uve seen,and also not the skinnest)likes to actually have a intelligent conversation(not ones only about,hey that rapper is the shit,FO SHIZ)and i duno he kinda has to be into my music but if hes not its okay. If ur the guy and u just wanna be my friend and or w/e just lemme know... well uhh now that ive but my add out in ther personals(lol) then i think i should be off attempting to sleep.adios
......::::Kayla:::......
Please just dont play with me
my paper heart will bleed,
this way for destiny wont do,
be with me please i beseach you,
sinple things that make you run a-way,

tears fall,down ur face,
this taste,is something new,
something that i know,
moving on is the easiest,when im around you,

so bottle up old love,
and throw it out to sea,
watch it away as you cry,
now a year has past,
the seasons go,

Waiting,day to day it does through,
my lips are sleaed for her,
my tongue is
tied to,a dream of being with you,
To settle for less,is not what i perfer,

Summer time,the nights are so long,
the leaves fall down,and so do i into
the arms of a friend
my bedside is cold,for i am gone,
and spring blosooms you to me
*all american regects~my paper heart*

wow.. uhh yeah... what a day?

2002-12-29T22:34:15Z

I didnt do anything today. I woke up at 9:30,checked my live journal,went back to bed,and did that 3 times before now and finally im awake. I got an e-mail from my dad,Uhh wow I thought i was fucked up. wanna read it?
My dearest Brittany. its Xmas time and yet we are no closer to speak on there issues what we muitxxxxx ... i apologize for my remarks in you letters, but I was upset that told her... everyone in a Irish family.. They say things that and you out angered... that was not meant as being shit on.... all a ask that you 2 sisters remember that you’re are.. when I send the card I was upset that you told but I am feeling very bad,,, my Xmas was terrible... my I haven’t opened ant of the present that Kayla brought... I hope you both loved the CD. and the money and by figured ho0wto work ... ii think that CD is also is a burner,,,,,, IM trying to arrange for barb and howie to come over....you have gifts from barb and howie... and i think peggy also... i think that would show some class.... but mostly i want them to see how you’ve grown as a woman.... and also kayla is heavy but barb may have some healthful thing to get her on the road to recovery....IM trying to set up tomorrow here perhaps pizza... beer call if you wish... i haven’t open anything
love
yous dadda
and thats after i spell checked it... uhh i called brittany and she was like hes drunk,And im kinda scared cause I duno why does he send it too me? I cant deal with this, he never calls me and now he wants us to be cool?I think not! Im gonna go over just to see my other family and attmept to have a good time. Use his comp. burn some cds and then just leave. Hes really creepy.but i mean its my dad and ive gotta deal with it. I wonder why i cant ever have a nice normal uh psychopath filt day?Well I guess its just my luck.Im kinda very awake, and i have nothing to do, Ohh yeah I went skateboarding outfront of my house today. I did pretty good.. I stood up and skated down to the cornor and back and didnt fall!!!!! woooo party!!!!!!Yeah its not bad for a beginner of like 1 day.and i almost did an olly but i fell and hit my lip on the curb and was like FUCK! it hurt like a bitch so i stopped. 3 more days of break and i dont have shit to do! I need to get a life. Well Im gonna go look for more friends. Adios
.......:::Kayla:::.....
I should have known,
With a boy like you his middle name is allways,
I'd alllways love you...
uh uh uh oh yeah! -Rilo Kiley

phew-what a day

2002-12-29T03:36:58Z

well, i slept in till really late,Cleaned my lip,slept,and then went to the mall from 5:30-9:30... I saw tons off ppl who i knew and they all were like I love ur lip and i was like yeah,but it hurt like a bitch!Then I saw this kid Steve(i used to have a crush on him)and his 2 friends:1 kid hugged me at the ska show last weekend and the other kid was hot but he hates me.anyway i talked with them for like 1 hr. untill i left and I pigged out! I had 3 preztels a dutch ice and a smoothie! Ahhh I duno why.. i didnt eat cause my lip hurted and my tummie hurted and i duno i ate my ass off(but not all at the same time.. different times)Yeah well the kid from the show who hugged me(not steve but the kid with the affro) I really like him. I mean like him like him..But he doesnt like me like me so ill be happy with the friendship we might have.. well i assume thats about it for me
~*~kayla~*~

If u werent soo big I would of been next!

2002-12-28T00:28:30Z

People suck ass! I hate them all,especially the ones who have alot of money and think their hot shit! YOU ALL CAN BURN IN HELL!!!!!!!!!(JAQ'S) Well,me,my sister,and her bestfriend and mine Jaquie went to the mall today and I didnt buy shit but I saw alot of cuties!Not like they felt the same when they saw me but... yeah anyway,I went with Jaquie to this smoothie place while my sister was waiting to pay for her shit in delias.Well their were alot of people their so i was like uhh woah. Soo The guy asked jaquie what she wanted and she asked for something and they didnt have it so she told me to go,so the guys was like can I help u miss and i told him what i wanted. Then all of a sudden outta no where some yuppie bitch poped up and was like Its okay,Go ahead I was next and you know how i like to wait in line for my health. I was like uhh Im so sorry but I DIDNT HEAR U ANSWERE WHEN HE SAID NEXT. So its not really my fault. So she says some other shit and Jaquie told me to ignore her and i did and then when i was talking to the guy and getting drinks shes like Its not my fault ur bigger then me so u kinda hid me. I was like You fucking stupid ass bitch.. Jaquie said that was so uncalled for and told me to not say anything and be the bigger person and deal it out. I was shaking with addrenialine. So she hopped in front of me and bought her shit and like ran down the walkway. Soon my sister came and we told her the story and busted down the walkway and we went on a bitch hunt.Well,we found her,my sister walked up to her tapping her saing uhh Ma'm? and she said LEAVE ME ALONE,and my sister was like uhhh no,did u fell good putting down and little 13 yr. old child? How mature and the whole time i was yelling stupid preppy rich bitch down the walkway. Then outta no where. Jaquie yelled STUPID YUPPIE BITCH! GO BURN IN HELL. I was like YEAH Jaquie and i was like pissin myself it was so damn funy. Well I guess i should go,Jaquie,brittany,mommy,and I are gonna play some games. Ill tell u about that interesting family loving(not) gaming event. Adios

Time 4 change!

2002-12-27T15:19:51Z

Lastnight I went to the mall with my friend Jocelyn,I ate ALOT...I had a medium Carribean Smoothie.It hurt my lip,But I was dieing!I saw all these bitches from school:Barbra,Jenn.B,Alex.B,And some other girl. Then I saw my friends: Amanda,ashley,Jesse.Their my piercing buddies,Except ashley,I dont know her very well.Soo when I bought my pig out drink,this mexican guy who worked their was talking to my friend in spanish and then he asked me what my name was,and i said Kayla,then he started laughing and talked more in spanish. Iwas like uhh SMOOTHIE! Later on Jocelyn told me he was saying how he thought i was cute and I started to cry,b/c hes like fucking 30! thats nasty as anything.Anywho,I also decided Im gonna take out my spacers cause im done with that.Then I decided Im gonna get a hair cut and Im gonna dye my hair Black and hace the front pieces ruby.I think that'll look cute.I told off Chris(my x-bf cause he JUST so happened to be at the mall the same time i was their)..see he's a fucking stalker. I had a half day on Monday and he came to my school at 12 and my mom wasnt gonna be their untill 1 and i ran away from him and hid in the girls bathroom for 45 minutes!Then he finally left and i waited out the 15 minutes of being scared alone.I felt such like a secret Agent. I loved it!.Then ealier that week i was at ska shows and he was at all of them trying to make out with me and i slaped him and said fuck off and he never talked to me again! Im sooo happy, well i going to be going now,Im having a sleep over with Joce so i can space her ears. Adios!

ouchies!

2002-12-27T00:09:30Z

I just got my lip pierced.. it hurt, i was shaking,then it wore off and now its all swallon and icky... Im BORED as anything, I wanna go out soo badly. No one wants to read my live journal,no ones one aol,Im desperate enough 2 go to the mall... AAAAHHHH I will more then likely play the Sims and talk to my fake friends.. Wow what a life i live? Adios

antipreppies @ 2002-12-26T08:56:00

2002-12-26T13:53:58Z

Sorry about adding the same mesages 2 times cause i hit the button 2 times accidently!

Pierced!

2002-12-26T13:51:12Z

Hey,
This is my first entry so im gonna get u all catched up on my life so far.... Im a 14 yr. old punk girl whos got more issuses then i think u'll ever know...my dad- a sadistic asshole who needs to grow up and act the age he is My mom- nothing like me: acts like awww hugg me,aww sit down and watch "Leave it to Beaver with me!",I cant blame her for trying..Brittany- emotional out loud(once again nothing like me)kind,caring,and overly "everyone before me" she needs to get a backbone and be like "Me today,you tommorow"..And Finally Me- Quietly Emotional,kinda nice,very sarcastic(gets me into a good amout of trouble)Quiet mostly but once talking Needs to be told to stop (*Bad with making conversation but once Im in one I cannot shut up!*)yeah... thats about it for my life:
Well,christmas was alot of fun lastnight.. me and my sister decided were gonna get pierced together(not actually todether but at the same time.. u know what i mean!)im getting my lip done and shes getting her lip re-pierced.I was gonna get my eyebrow cause ive been asking for it since i was like 9 but everyone has been telling me the chances of it not growing out and staying in are so slim its not even funny so... why go threw all that pain for it to get all infected and icky looking leaving this nasty scar on my eyebrows? think not! I cant wait untill im 18 cause me and my friend Loren are gonna go get our tongue's pierced. Excited! In case you havent noticed quiet yet.. I think about the future and get excited even though its like a million years away. Christmas was actually kinda a let down,see the night before my dad was talking about my sister to me and i thought since she was thinking he was gonna be nice to her i might let her know whats going on so i told her EVERYTHING he was saying.. I know on one side this sounds like Im trying to hurt my sister but I figured she'd wanna know cause I duno I would rather have her and I both know whats going on and talk about it then have her act all happy while dad looks over at me knowing we know what he thinks of her and she doesnt know whats going on... well,he didnt call to see if were even alive and Im pissed cause he sent me an e-mail:
I hope you like your presents and dont worry ill be spending christmas alone and im gonna like it
*dad*.. WTF is that? I mean c'mon how bad did he want guilt? I mean hes an attention whore... allways needs everyones attention even if its killing your children inside... GOD I HATE HIM!Whatever... anyway, Do you think I should call him and ask how Christmas was or wait for him?I need help! HELP ME!!!!!!!

Pierced!

2002-12-26T13:51:01Z